Down to Earth

Dear Bloggy,

Yesterday, there was an earth quake. I was terrified thinking that the shaking was caused by the magic from the Harry Potter:Half Blood Prince book that I was reading as my bedtime story. Well, of course it was not. It was a light earth quake which last for around 30 seconds. According to the Times UK news, it was the biggest tremor so far UK had ever experience. The news also said that there was no injuries and only damages. Thank God!

Last night too, I had an International Night 2008. It was a great event I should say. The Malaysian Student Society performed a Malay Wedding Ceremony as I've mentioned before. Marina and me were the MC representing Malaysia. I didn't feel nervous at all but has no idea what we were talking about because in the end we didn't use the script that Marina has made for us. It was all spontaneous but I felt that I was really bad. Anyway, I'm glad that Marina and the others were happy with the performance though honestly, I'm not that satisfy myself because I've used to perform before. The good thing was it showed how much effort and cooperation the Malaysian in Norwich have made. Well done to them!




Anyway, I couldn't sleep. I miss him a lot but I dare not call or email him because I'm scared that in the end I will hurt myself. I think I still love him and how I wish I could say that and how I wish he knew that. I wonder what will happen to the love I preserve as time flies? Hmmm...

P/S: I also miss Zul, Ijam and Usop's photography skills. The cameraman in Norwich is lousy.

Dear Bloggy,

Around 12.59am, I was concentrating with my Harry Potter: Half Blood Prince, where Dumbeldore being killed by Snape. Suddenly, the house was shaking and my books, my table, bed, everything showed some movement. I was terrified! I thought at first, it could be the magic from the Harry Potter that I was reading. Then, when the shaking stop I quickly searched for my housemates and it's true, it was an earth quake!

Dear Bloggy,

Finally we've finished the "pelamin" set for our performance this Wednesday. We are going to perform a Malay Wedding Ceremony. There are around 10 countries involved in this event and mostly are from the South East Asia. I'm getting excited about it and can't wait to wear my "baju kurung" and "selendang". Really miss them.

Dear Bloggy,

Actually I wanted to change my blog layout and in the end I lost most of the links that I've saved especially my friend's blog lists. Sorry for the inconvinience. Probably after I sent my proposal I will alter back my site and restore the friends' list.

I'm getting better now. It has been more than a week I've been a single. It's good that I've got my mood back. Plus, my life is getting busier with works and the upcoming International Night. In fact,after I broke off, I found that I'm more concentrate in class and I have no idea why.

Dear Bloggy,

These days, my friends have been trying to cheer me up with jokes, cooking etc. Even yesterday, Chiung Hui made a dumpling party for me to cheer me up. Wang Wen said that these days, I look depressed and thinner. She said I have changed from a cheerful person to gloomy. Even some of my friends who are in Malaysia been emailing and messaging me asking me to be strong. I think I'm grateful because I have people around me who is caring and loving.

All I can say to them is that, yes I am trying my best to be strong, to focus with study etc. However, it takes time for me because to fall in love is easy but to forget it makes me crazy. Day and night I keep praying to God asking God to give me strength to survive.

Dear Bloggy,

This is the first time I did some craziest thing in my whole life! I've bought a flight ticket back to Malaysia. Actually I do really miss home a lot after all the fight I had with my ex-boyfriend. And I think I need to go back and refresh myself with my friends and families around me. Also, I would like to appologise to Kak Niza and Ikmal because of this sudden decision. I know I'm selfish but I have too just for this moment I really need my families with me. Sigh... Probably I'll buy something back from Malaysia for them. Feel little guilty though because everything has almost plan for the easter holidays. Sigh...

Good news today, Prof. Mullis not feeling well today so the class is cancelled! Yahoo!!!

Dear Bloggy,

I couldn't sleep. Seriously, I've been crying every night for these three days after I know the fact that I'm officially single now. Part of me so sad because I still love him while another part of me feel like kicking his ass off because I'm angry that he gave up so easily. I mean the actual reason that he wanted us to be friends because his parents against our relationship. When I read his email, I wish I could blown up at him because he should realize that my parents have been against in the past three years and I never give up, instead keep standing up for love and keep encouraging my parents to accept him. How coward he is? Plus, his reason is similar to Roger(my first boyfriend) when he broke up with me and in the end I found that he has another girl.Sigh...

Of course I didn't reply his email harshly. In fact, I replied in a peaceful manner because firstly, I was preparing myself mentally and physically for my afternoon presentation and secondly, I'm just tired of dealing with this kinda guy (I know I'm smarter than him). C'mon, be a grown up! Whatever it is, just leave to God. Like the Malay always say "kalau ada jodoh tak ke mana". Yeah right. Saying is really easy but I'm still feeling so down and tears keep running out of my eyes. I'm trying my best to be as positive as I can. At times, I'm thinking of going for a counselling service for like few days,weeks or maybe months to get some professional theraphy. You know, I'm a postgraduate student now and having a stable emotional is essentially important. Well, will see about that. Probably, I'll discuss with Vanita and see whats her opinion.

This is really a RAT year (and I was borned in a RAT year) which mean a bad luck year for me. Everything will turn upside down according to Wang Wen's prediction about people who were borned in RAT year. I don't really believe it but just aware of it by praying to God to give luck everytime. Even though my days have been upside down, yesterday was my lucky day because I've got a supervisor. It's Pinar Akman. Cool right? How do I got her as my supervisor? Hmm... long story.

Anyway, right now I'm thinking of reading my Harry Potter: Half Blood Prince to make me fall asleep.

Dear Bloggy,

Easter holidays are coming soon and I have made some plan to go to Barcelona, Spain. I think this is the most difficult trip I ever made because I hardly know anything about Spain. Plus the name of attractions never ring me a bell unlike Eiffel Tour, Disneyland, Vatican City etc. Everything in Spain is new to me so I have to carefully search on the net and read guide book about the attraction. However, the most interesting thing about Spain it's beautiful and I really can't wait to go there!

Another update about me is that I'm emotionally unstable after had a fight with my boyfriend. Well, honestly I really have no idea what is my status now, single or not. But, deep in my heart, I still love him. Sigh... What to do? Just move on and look ahead. Trying to be as positive as I can, can't deny that sometimes I cried badly. I pray that everything will go smoothly this year. Amin.

Dear Bloggy,

Yesterday I had a Chinese New Year Eve dinner in my flat. 14 people attended the dinner organised by my Flatmates and me. The dinner was lovely and I really enjoyed eating different types of chinese foods from main meal to sweet desert. Among all foods, my favourite was the desert made from coconut milk, sagu mixed with sticky rice ball (inside filled with peanuts). It's awesome! Some of my flatmates presented a magic trick to entertain the guests. But it didn't work well because they are not expert. Hehehe. Some enjoyed playing card games and the others chatted and laughed with each other. It was a nice atmosphere which last almost midnight! Everyone was very tired in the end. However, we were happy and felt blessed with the foods.


Bamboo Napkin Made by Chiung Hui.


Menu of the Dinner.


Food!!!


Us! Enjoying the food as much as we can.


Chatting and eating.


Yummy! This was my favourite desert!


He tried to impress us with magic trick. But, failed.


Black Jack?